My Life Will Not Be The Same Again

Since my dog’s passing, I have received many friends’ heartfelt messages. I am so touched and moved by their love and support. Thank you.

Looking at the last photo of Jamie I’ve ever taken. He was with my parents, my brother and my sister on the phone in Japan. We were all there for him on his last day. I will never forget it.

Jamie turned 13 years old on the 2nd of March 2020. The same day I had the job interview. I landed the job with his blessing. Then he left peacefully.

Jamie gave his whole life to me. He changed my life for better. He even saved my life. This unexpected loss has been really hard to take. I had Jamie as a puppy when he was 2 months old back in May 2007. When I saw him the first time, I felt in love with him straight away. Now, not having him around, my life will not be the same again.

I had a good cry that night, the first time in 9 years. The next day when I woke up not seeing Jamie, I cried again. The room has become so strangely quiet, I miss him.

I was on the phone with my mum before writing this. We talked a lot about how our lives have been blessed and enriched by this little fellow. I was so so lucky to have had Jamie in my life.

Right now, my heart is broken. The pain and sadness I’m experiencing is indescribable. I’m going to allow myself to grieve. Jamie is one and only. He’s irreplaceable.

I’m really looking forward to picking up his ashes next week. A few years ago, I made a promise to him that I will continue to take him out for a walk even after he died. He didn’t know it. Now I’m going to deliver my promise. I knew how much he loved our walks in the bush and around beaches. So, Jamie, when you come home, we will start going out and about again every week.

Thank you my Jamie boy for everything. Your memories will stay with me FOREVER.

Ted xxx

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